I'm sorry, Eric

Sadly, the fight is far from over.

I feel for anyone who experiences discrimination. Sometimes it seems like there is more darkness than light, but we must never give up.

"We need to work to get everyone to be equal."

Kurt Jull is my friend

Last night at CC's a dance mix of Imogen Heap's Hide and Seek was playing. My friend Kurt told me that he created a dance routine to the song and directed me to this video. I posted a music video of the song recently and wanted to share this cool dance routine with you too. This is a very creative interpretation of the song.

Towards the end of the video, you'll notice all the colors of the panels changing at what seems to be an impossible rate of speed. I just don't know how they did it. I've never seen a routine with panels. In my day, the girls just waved flags and threw wooden rifles in the air. And the routine was always performed to a Lionel Richie song.

Kurt has a lot of talent. Way to go, my friend!

Kurt Jull Designs

How's Your News?

Have you seen How's Your News?

It is one of the most compelling and beautiful documentary films I've ever seen.

A group of disabled reporters travel across the country interviewing people on the street. The cast members are so pure at heart and endearing. I fell in love with them, and many times during the movie I had tears streaming down my face. I have never been so moved by a movie, and I just want everyone to see it. Watching the cast experience The Grand Canyon, the Fort Worth Stockyards, Vegas showgirls, and the Hollywood Walk of Fame was beautiful and deeply touching.

I found out about this film when I heard the Special Ed episode (#207) of This American Life.

I purchased the DVD and loved it so much. I just want to tell everyone I know to check out this movie!

There are awkward moments in the film. At times I cringed and almost felt like I wanted to turn away from the interviews. But these reporters seem to have no fear about talking to strangers. They don't worry about the way others perceive them and their disabilities. As Ronnie, one of the reporters, says to a lady who laughs at him, "It's okay to laugh, ma'am. I laugh at myself all the time."

St. Patrick's Day

Yesterday, a Mexican-American person convinced me to drink vodka with green food coloring in it. Why I allowed this non-Irish person to influence my celebrations, I can't explain. Mexican-Americans are very convincing people and have been known to talk me into drinking strange drinks and into sleeping with them (not always after drinking strange drinks).

I did not enjoy the drink when it was green. I chose to have only 2 green vodkas with club soda. The other 14 were crystal clear, just the way I like them. See, I am one of those people who firmly believes food coloring is not tasteless. I'm not talking about taste in the sense of class. Because it would be very hard to argue that food coloring is classy. What I'm saying is that I believe things taste different with food coloring. I think it has a flavor. Yes, ma'am or sir, I know that you don't think food coloring has a taste. Several people at the bar challenged me on this as well. My own father spent many years explaining to me that you can't taste food coloring. He said I taste it psychologically or something.

Many have argued this subject with me in the past. People feel very passionately about food coloring. Please, if you are going to comment today on this hot button issue, do not flame others or use harsh language. Keep it civil, people.

Thanks, Tim

I was so happy tonight when The Toddtender came into the theatre and sat down to watch the final performance of Tonya & Nancy: The Rock Opera. He is an amazing person, and I still can't believe we are friends. The Toddtender is the best friend anyone could ever ask for. His hotness is a bonus, but his heart is why I love him. Thank you Tim, for being there tonight.

Tonya & Nancy was an unbelievable experience. I am sad it is over, but I am also so happy to have my life back. Theatre demands your entire heart and soul, and it is exhausting. The rewards are great, but the cost is great too.

I will never forget the people I worked with. I will always remember meeting Tonya Harding and having drinks with her. I will always be grateful for the chance to play Shawn Eckhardt. I'm thankful for the opportunities and joys that being an actor have brought to my life.

Performing for the people I love is one of the best parts of acting. Thank you to all the friends who came to see the show. I loved making you smile!

True Colors Tour 2008

Cyndi Lauper is bringing her True Colors tour back for 2008. This year she's being joined by the B-52's. Last year I didn't see the show, but I won't miss it this year. That's for sure!

Hide And Seek

Those who have followed Hot Toddy's Toaster Oven for years know that I am , first and foremost, a clown. I like to make people laugh. I don't take myself too seriously.

But readers of this blog also know that I've been heartbroken and melancholy.

A couple of years ago, I fell in love with Thor. It was the most amazing and most devastating relationship of my life. But I will always be thankful for the chance to experience such an amazing passion.

I have moved on from that relationship. But recently I found a song by Imogen Heap that brought me right back to that passionate desperate place. I want to share it with you, because you've been with me for years and don't judge me for my romantic soul. You get me. And that is why I'm so grateful to have loyal readers like you who are kindred spirits.

Hot Toddy's Toaster Oven is for those who feel deeply and love without reservation. Thank you to all who have stood by me through the ups and the downs.

Hide and Seek

I tried to post a video tonight. I thought that I might be able to explain a bit more about Hot Toddy if I shared a raw and unedited view of myself here. But YouTube hates me and won't allow me to post videos on my blog.

So here is the link to my current favorite song.

If you have followed this blog for a while and are familiar with the story of Toddy & Thor (circa 2005), I feel this video really sums up our story.

If you don't care, I don't blame you. There are lots of bloggers who will tell you about the new cell phone they bought yesterday or the hot guy they hooked up with at the gym. Hot Toddy's Toaster Oven is where romantic souls come to laugh and cry. I'm glad you're here. Thanks for getting me. I get you too.

Stuff White People Like

I am so jealous that I didn't think of this.

I remember when my blog used to be funny. Those were the days.

Maybe someday I'll get inspired to get back to the funny. Lately I find myself saving all my funny stories for the Todd & Pony Show.

Monday Morning!

I got up early just so I could post an entry before I go to work.

Instead, I think I'll watch the latest episode of LOST.

If this blog were my child it would be taken into custody by Child Protective Services.

My Satellite Sisters

One of my very favorite podcasts is The Satellite Sisters. One of the hosts, Monica Dolan, is coming to see Tonya & Nancy: The Rock Opera this weekend. I can't tell you how excited I am to meet her after the show!

If you're interested, here is Monday's show in which the sisters briefly discuss Tonya & Nancy! (Segment begins at 15:50)
http://www.satellitesisters.com/audio/show115.mp3

You can also hear it at iTunes (February 25, 2008 episode)

I've straightened the sisters out on some of the facts of this confusing story. They now understand that Shawn was not, as they say, "the whacker". (I didn't want to steal "Shane Stant's" thunder)

Hot Toddy on CNN

Here is my favorite video clip of Tonya & Nancy: The Rock Opera news coverage.

Yes, folks. This little Portland show was covered by CNN.

I'm still trying to let it all sink in. We sold out last night. I'll be surprised if we don't extend the show.

Today is the first day off I've had in weeks. I'm going to take a nap, watch television, probably catch the Oscars, and eat lots of food since I finally got to the freakin' grocery store!

Most importantly, I'm NOT singing today! Life is good.

Publicity Overload

I've never been part of a show that received so much press. Of course, when Tonya Harding comes to your opening night, there's bound to be buzz.

Have you ever received a standing ovation from Tonya Harding? I have.

I'm trying to post a video here, but until I manage to do so, here's a sampling of news coverage Tonya & Nancy: The Rock Opera has received.

Stories with video

KATU News:


Willamette Week


Newspapers

The Oregonian

Portland Tribune

Opening Night

Tonight at 8:00 p.m. the cast of Tonya & Nancy will be rocking the World Trade Center. Our band is awesome. I just hope the audience will be able to hear us singing! I also hope that I don't do anything stupid. Last night at our final dress rehearsal, I accidentally brought a nightie on stage. What happened was.... the actress playing Tonya asked me to bring the wrap-around skirt part of her costume on stage because she didn't have time to put it on backstage. I accidentally scooped up some of the lingerie she wore in a previous scene and carried it out with me. The scene on stage was the 1993 National Figure Skating Championships, and there I was, Tonya Harding's bodyguard, holding a slinky negligee. I threw it on the floor and tried to kick it behind me.

Here is a link to story about the show. Included in the online article is a link to "When You Wake Up Sleeping in Your Car in Estacada", one of the songs in the show.

My cell phone rang at 7 a.m. this morning waking me from a sound sleep. It was Auburn Pisces calling to let me know she had seen me on the news. (A news crew had filmed one of our rehearsals a couple weeks ago so I think that's the footage she saw).

We've had lots of press for this show, and the fact that Tonya is coming to see it tonight is probably a big reason for the hullabaloo.

I am looking forward to meeting Ms. Harding, but to be honest I am more looking forward to this weekend when I can sleep in, do some laundry and go to the grocery store!

Orange and Purple

Today I am wearing orange and purple together. Why? Because I feel like wearing orange and purple. They don't match well. I look ridiculous. Like a clown.

I need to feel like a clown today because I have been rehearsing for the show and am recording a podcast today. I have not done laundry or gone to the grocery store for 2 weeks, and I doubt I will accomplish either task today either. I seriously need to spend some time reviewing a few of the songs in the show because everything sounds completely different with the band. Rehearsing with a piano sounds nothing like rehearsing with electric guitars and drums. Tomorrow I am back at the office and then rehearsal, and that will continue for the rest of the week. Tylenol PM helps me shut off my brain at night, but I still fall asleep with songs from the rock opera running through my head.

When I have lots of obligations, I start to feel pent up. I want to be free of all commitments. But that isn't a realistic way to live. So I am just going to wear orange and purple together.

Tonya told our director that she would like to have drinks with the cast after the show. We open Thursday!

That is the update for those of you who cared enough to ask. It touches me that people are still out there reading even though I rarely update lately! Thank you!

Meeting Tonya

This just in.

Tonya Harding is planning on attending Tonya & Nancy on opening night.

As the cast rehearses the show, I feel confident that Tonya would approve. There are some very heartfelt moments that will help the audience to see Tonya as the human being that she is.

She made some mistakes. Personally, I wouldn't want my life to be played out in the media the way hers was. I'm sure most of us wouldn't come off smelling like a rose if publicizing our faults made for a good news story.

I'm interested to meet her and am looking forward to performing the show for Tonya Harding. Nancy Kerrigan, I've heard, has said she does not want to be involved in the show in any way.

The next couple weeks before opening night are sure to be a wild ride.

Beth Willis

I'm working with an amazing singer/songwriter in Tonya & Nancy: The Rock Opera. Beth Willis has a beautiful voice and writes incredible songs. Please check her out at her website or her MySpace page. Beth is playing Tonya Harding in the show, and she is doing a great job. Audiences are going to fall in love with her.

I'm playing Tonya's bodyguard, Shawn Eckhardt, so I get to spend some time with Beth waiting in the wings. Today she taught me the Star Trek "Live Long and Prosper" sign. She's so cool, and so genuine and kind.

What I love most about theatre is the opportunity to meet and work with talented and inspirational artists. It is good to be back on stage.

Tonya & Nancy: The Rock Opera

Well, it may be a while until I have time to update. I'm working many nights each week to get ready for the world premiere of Tonya & Nancy: The Rock Opera. What a fun show. And what an amazing cast!

My ex is in the show. That was a shocker, let me tell you! I am still sort of trying to figure out how to work with him professionally without letting our past become an issue. He was my first love, and although I don't have those feelings for him any longer, I have to admit it is hard to work with him professionally. It is just so hard to separate personal feelings from my professional responsibilities!

Actually, he was a big reason I started this blog. I needed an outlet for all I was feeling. I have had several significant relationships since him, but, as Sheryl Crow would say, "the first cut is the deepest..."

Irreplaceable~Sugarland and Beyonce

Hot Damn, Patter Pam. I had so much fun with you and The Handsome Prince and The Math Whiz tonight. Celebrating Torrey's birthday and supporting her in the loss of a family member as she prepares for tomorrow's funeral.

Wine and vodka and a fire pit and barbecued hamburgers and laughter and admissions of dorky boy-stalking.

Life is good. My friends make it all worthwhile.

Back on the Boards

This weekend, I'll be starting rehearsals for the world premiere of Tonya & Nancy: The Rock Opera. I'm playing Shawn Eckardt.

I haven't done a show in a couple years. I took time off to explore other interests, including softball. But how could I say no to this opportunity? It will be so great to be back on stage again!

I'm very excited about the cast too. I'll get to work with some great people.

Portland Musicians to Star in Harding/Kerrigan Musical

I'll keep you posted!